Updated: Dec 15, 2019
Good morning beautiful people, and how was your sleep?
The last week or so I have been waking up feeling exhausted and with barely enough energy to get myself out of bed. I have been dreaming so much ( most of which I can’t remember ), I have no idea why my brain won’t shut off. All I can think of is that I haven’t had a day to myself and that work is really stressing me out. I have been trying to take steps to rid myself of a stressful work life – aka finding a new career path – however I am so far unsuccessful. It’s tough work just finding work. I live in a small town where the options are few. Some would say, “Why don’t you leave for a bigger city and find work there?”, but, I really can’t see me leaving this small town (for many reasons), at least not right now. I’ve always told myself the only reason I would leave is because I’m moving to the west coast where the mountains are in view!
So, since my brain and body have been feeling overwhelmed I have decided to take today as a Rylee Day. I made a list of all the things I would like to do for ME! I think it’s really important to take the time for yourself so you can assess the things in your life that you enjoy and that you don’t enjoy. Sometimes all it takes is a short few hours for you to think about life and realize “Hey! That’s what has been bothering me lately”, or “You know what, I really love doing this, it makes me happy”. Sometimes all it takes is that little bit of time to get you back on track.
The other day I was visiting my parents at their old country house (that I love so much and miss every day), and my father had a friend visiting from work. Things were going well and conversation was flowing nicely, with beers in hand obviously, when all the sudden he put up his glass. “Well,” he said, “Everybody raise your glass for a cheer,”. At this point, I thought he was going to cheers to my brother who lost is life in a snowmobiling accident 3.5 years ago, which is nothing out of the norm for us because we cheers him all the time! But this time, our fairly quiet friend had a loss of his own. “Ol’ Grandma Hamilton passed away this mornin’,”. At this point, my father and I, who know loss oh so well, raised our glasses and cheered to this woman that we have never met. We could see the grief in his eyes as he told us how his grandmother, who suffered from Alzheimers, could always remember his name when she couldn’t remember anyone else. As a Personal Support Worker, I know how special that is and said some kind words to him as he was reminiscing.
My father, as amazing as he is, told his friend that he should take a few days off work to visit with his family that would be travelling in from Northern Ontario for the funeral. Now let me tell you, for his man to miss work it takes A LOT! You could tell that he was immediately brushing off my fathers words and that he had planned on going into work regardless. This is where my inner spirit guide came out. I told him that he needed to take some time for himself. I know it sounds silly coming from a young lady half his age, getting all preach, but its true! Growing up if I was having an off day my father always let me stay home. We’re humans, not super humans! We need time to reflect! My parents were always the first ones to stand behind that!
If we don’t take the time to reflect on ourselves and our lives then what will happen? We get stressed, we don’t take the time to detoxify our minds, the stress grows and eventually we explode with anger and resentment to other people, when really the only one we should be angry with is ourselves for not taking the time when we should. There is a fine line where this happens, the moment where things go from stressful to… holy shit I can’t handle this. Every persons limit is different and as we grow we learn where that limit is. When we finally learn where that limit is, it becomes easier to recognize when we need that precious ME time.
Today is one of those days for me. When I woke up this morning I had a voicemail on my phone from work asking if I would like to come in for a shift today. Automatically I started thinking about the next few days of shift work I had and how my body would be saying to me “Wtf are you doing to me? Up early and to bed late and up early and to bed late again? Come on girl, get it together!”. After those thoughts crossed my mind, I started having thoughts of all the plans I had today, like writing this blog, practice my sewing, going to the gym and a whole lot of other things that I wanted to do for me! So, I decided that I wouldn’t take the shift and I would work on my inner peace and with no regrets.
My morning so far has been sipping coffee with the smell of my honeysuckle candle burning and beautiful soft music (accompanied by sounds of my goofy pup making goofy pup sounds). So far, it has been great! I feel wonderfully relaxed, with every word I write on this blog I feel a sense of accomplishment and I am so excited for the rest of my day.
If you are like me and value your alone time to reflect on the things that need reflecting, I congratulate you. I thank you for the peace you bring into this world by bringing peace into your mind and body.
If you haven’t thought much in your life about taking the time necessary for cleanse yourself of stress and anger, I wish for you to take a few moments now and close your eyes. Close your computer and just breathe. Listen to what your body is telling you. Let the peace in!
Lets keep a peaceful mind!
Stay Lovely My Friends ❤